Such a cliche to write something on the first day of the year but so what? I have decided not to pray for anything this year, and it’s because of what I went through the past year but let’s stop talking about last year for a second or the year before that or the one before, it’s not doing us any good. For me, no more regrets, everything I ever did and said, I stand by it. I will not wish for this year to be all good or to be better than the ones before, I will let it be how it should. Not that I’m hoping for it to be all bad, but whether good things happen or otherwise, I will face it. For the good times give us memories to look back on and the bad times makes us hopeful about the year to come. No longer do I guard my heart, I will let her handle situations that she needs to deal with on her own for if I have learned anything in the last year, it’s how much her strength is. But one thing I’ll make sure of, I will make the good times more fun than they already are and the bad times funny, for at least not only have you gained lesson(s) for life but a story to tell. I have some bumps and bruises from last year’s battle but going in the new one, I will wear the scars like badges of honour I have earned from that fight. I have everything and everyone that I need, but I can make room for more.
-juliet 20190101 2132