Avista

She stares intently at this lady who bears this youthful, gorgeous face, as her reflection does the same. She ties her hair up, putting each and every strand aside to clear it out of her face. She reaches out for her brush, put on foundation to start. Shape up her eyebrows, painted her eyes to give them that boost that they never really need. She put on mascara on her lashes that need not to be thicker. She ever so gently put blush on her cheeks and stained her lips. She then powdered her face to finish. She then took her hair tie off and began curling her hair. Spritz hairspray of course or it wouldn’t stay like that. She smiled in admiration of what she has done. Magnificent. She put on her dress and jewels and went on.

She reserved a seat for him. All throughout the night, many have asked for the seat and her answer was always there’s someone sitting there. One time she stood up to check on him. She opened the door and their eyes met. She didn’t say anything because she thought the gesture was enough, and it should be. She went back to her seat, the people she was surrounded with had told her time and again maybe he’s not coming anymore, but she played deaf to those comments. But the guys that have asked for the seat has not stopped ever since she sat there. That’s why some people would say maybe give that guy a chance to sit and then she would respond with he might come and see that someone is already sitting and I don’t want him to think I’ve replaced him. She has gone numb to the shrugs and sighs of the people around her. But she was always like that, stern and stubborn. Though you need not tell her that she is or was wrong because when she realizes it, she holds herself accountable.

She finally decided to go in the back, opened the door and said what’s going on, I saved a seat for you. And he responded with, you should start looking for someone to sit on it because I can’t. She didn’t reply, she felt that was enough, she had enough. She ever so calmly shut the door, walked back to her seat with tears rolling down her cheeks like waterfalls. By every step she takes, her heart breaks ten times greater than when it shattered as she closed the door. But she remained headstrong despite being weakened by every move she makes. She wiped off the tears on her face, dusted off the seat and sat back down like a lady on the seat she reserved for so long for him. Looked each of her people in the eyes, still tears running down her face but with a straight face she says it’s over. One of them argued, but she was sure of it. She wept for as long as she thought she has to. She knows she will stand again. She thought about how to other men, it was the best seat in the house, but completely meant nothing to him. She should have seen it, she should have heeded her doubts from the very beginning. But she found no use crying over spilled milk. And why should she keep it for longer, based on a false hope, on a hypothetical, she is worth so much more than that. She doesn’t need to be told twice because that’s how she was raised, she could almost hear her mother, Once is enough for a wise man. So it was indeed, over.

Then came a time, she stood up and moved to her seat. She started to smile back at the gentlemen who cast their gaze on that seat. She found herself taking chances. She was waiving back on gentlemen who waives to her. She was back to her old self and better. She was busy talking with the people around her and little did she know, someone sat on the seat. She looked at him, and he looked back. He didn’t bother asking her or anything. She didn’t bother to talk. But her glances have always been enough for anyone who has encountered her. That just made her smile, the thought of this guy being so brazen to sit there, but he just looked at her. Not a smile, not even a smirk, just eyes forward. She could kick him out but, she’s curious like that. She wants to see where this is going and how everything will unfold.

Then it made her think, this could be that light in the horizon. She doesn’t know if it will lead to a great sunrise or it’s just a breadcrumb, but it excites her. That’s when it hit her that the thought of him was a strange distant memory that was once in her reality. Then she knew she was back. But this time, she’s wiser, calmer and more collected. A change of scenery right in front of her.

-juliet 20191113 1414

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