We can’t really blame people for being judgmental. Having them say things based on what you show them or what they see is just human . If what they say is not true, then it is ought to be ignored.
She loved him so much. Gave everything she thought would keep them together. He loved her too. They have been together for quite some time now, had their shared moments of ups and downs. Normal for a couple, they would say. Small misunderstanding and petty fights are part of a relationship that is going strong, or is it?
He has been patient with her. Tried to understand and had been careful not to make her upset. She, in return, has been honest to him. Loyal and trustworthy she had promised to be and it was a promised she assured to keep. But then fate is mean at times. It tries to shake things to check its stability. How do you assure a relationship to be strong enough?
Years passed and so did everything. Everything but them. It seemed that they got stuck. Stuck on that space they cannot explain. You got too comfortable, that’s what other say. Is being too comfortable not good? Does that put out the spark that used to be there?
One day they decided to end the unexplainable agony they seem to have. Ended a relationship that had a great start. Thinking that it would free themselves from the confused mind and uneasy feeling, they went on separate ways. She decided to fly to another place and he had stopped communicating to her. But again fate went all crazy and messed up with them. Could one still recover from a damage that is unfixable?
She longed for him. He missed her badly. She realized that they don’t need a spark. He figured it’s only her that he wants. He searched for her before he would go completely mental. She decided to fly back home to see her love.
A day before her flight back she received an email from him. He is going to wait at the airport for her. He missed her and wants nothing else but for them to be together. She immediately replied to his email. She longs to be in his arms again. She regrets that they had parted ways.
As she took the plane she felt nothing but excitement. She will be with him again and the best thing is, he wants her back. At the airport she arrived, quickly she got her baggage and went to see him outside. But she got confused for he was not there. Her family was, but he was not. Her best friend was there, but he wasn’t. All of them staring at her as she walked towards them, all with curious looks.
A few more steps and she could clearly see their faces. Did he change his mind? Did he decided not to be with her for good. She saw her best friend adjusted her sunglasses. She stared. Was that tears I saw, she thought. She stopped walking and looked at them hoping she would see signs that would explain everything.
Her mom rushed to her, crying. She was perplexed. What has happened? She could her heart beating fast. She was all confused. Where is he, is all that she could say. Her mom sobbed. A word she did not utter. She turned to her best friend and asked, where is he?
He’s gone. Two words rang sharply on her ears. Gone, but where to? She flew back here to see him, where did he go this time?
Flashes of images went rushing on her mind as she imagined the things they told her. He went to the mall the day before to pick up something. Along the highway he drove his car carefully, but from the other lane a truck lost its brake and crashed his car, pushing it to sidewalk. He was not able to escape. She tried to imagine he was able to jump out of the card, but it was no use. He was not able to escape.
She listened to everyone as they try to comfort her. She had not said a word, nor dropped a tear. She just tried to listen, hoping she would wake up from a bad a dream. But as she listened to their stories, she broke down when she heard it. He was going to the mall to pick up a gift. A customized golden ring designed just for her.
So you said you are happy. But then you cried. Once or twice, you cried. You have concluded that your life has become a hell. But then you are alive. Is that not a good reason for you to be happy?
Don’t think today is the end of the world. It’s like telling yourself to give up. Have it ‘the world is ending tomorrow’. By then you can strive further and live life to the fullest today.
Moments almost forgotten. Memories barely recovered. All got stuck in the mind. Music could release them all.
No one will really understand you, so just stop trying to let them do.
If you think all you have done is good, why bother about what others would say?
I don’t really understand what you are trying to tell me, I asked. But I didn’t mind telling it out loud. I just gave him an odd look as he held my hand tight. He does it a lot, yet he does not say much.
I gave him a weak smile as he looked at me before he left. I felt the chills again. I’ve been having a lot of it lately. Every time I see him walk towards me, I tend to have that weird feeling. This is all my best friend’s fault. If she hasn’t just given me that idea, I would not feel like this. I would not even think of it.
I’m Darla Villarante from Cebu by the way . I’m on my junior year in Civil Engineering. It wasn’t really my first choice to take up Civil Engineering. You see, my dad is an architect and my mom is a Civil Engineer, or was an engineer. She passed away two years ago. I felt obliged to take her place in my family’s company. I have an older brother, Carlo, and he is already following our dad’s footsteps and having that, he could be a real pain most of the time.
So here I am now, stuck in my English class . Our professor just left but we still have 15 minutes left for his class. He gave us a group activity to finish and I have him as a group mate. Lucky me, I guess. More time for us.
His name Bryan. Bryan Santos. He is a really good fellow. Sweet, smart and all crazy at times. We’ve been buddies since the first day of college. I don’t really remember how we knew each other. All I can remember is we have been hanging out since the first day.
“Darling you okay.”
Great. I really need to snap out of this thought. He is now staring at me and it’s really making me uncomfortable.
“ I can’t think of anything while you are there asking me every minute Bryan,” that’s the best alibi I could think of. Sigh.
My friend Ana had been forcing this stupid thought, “He is obviously in love with you,” she said, “he is extremely sweet to you. And remember that time when your car got broken in the middle of the highway? He got there right away after you called him and girl, that was really embarrassing having to push your car to the side of the road. He was faster than any roadside rescue.”
“Well you can’t expect me to call you for that problem,” I remembered answering her, “you don’t know anything about cars.”
I didn’t really consider the idea, not until two weeks ago.
It was after my Tuesday class while I was in the library. He sent me a text asking me as to where I was so I told him. After a few minutes, he was there, bringing some sandwich and a soda for me.
“Thanks, I’ll have them later,” I told him, wondering why he was there, “ so uhhh, what’s up?”
“ Nothing,” he said, as he pulled his chair nearer to me, “ just want to check out what you’ve been up to lately.”
“ Okay? Don’t you have a class or anything? You see, I’m studying here and you are a bit disturbing me in that process.. ” It wasn’t my intention to sound rude but the idea Ana has been pushing has popped in my head and I just had to sort of prove to myself I was being silly for even thinking of it.
“Class for my E mechanics has been cancelled. Apparently our professor got an accident on his way to class or something,” he was playing with the straps of my backpack while he seems to be just blabbering his answer to my question. “You doing something tonight?”, he asked as he dragged his seat nearer to mine.
That four word statement seemed to have deafened my ears. “What?” I managed to say.
“I was just thinking if you’re free tonight,” he said. For some odd reason he was playing with my hand this time, checking my cracked nail polish, “ we never really had dinner together, I mean, just the two of us.”
“And why would we do that?” I faked a chuckle. Still awed of what was happening, I felt my face flushed. “Where is Rose by the way?” I asked to subtly try to push the subject away, “I saw her earlier today at the parking lot. Why is she not with you? I was actually hoping she could help me with something.”
He just gave me a slight shrug. He didn’t even mind answering my question. All of a sudden he stood up and said he needed to leave.
The next day, he never mentioned anything. It even seemed not to have happened at all. I told Ana about it and she went hysterical.
“He was asking you out! Are you crazy? I mean it is just so obvious” Ana tends to exaggerate a lot which I really find annoying, but she’s my friend, I am still hoping I would get used to it.
“But we know I shouldn’t be going out with him” I coldly answer her. Even though if I wanted to, I know I shouldn’t.
“Darla, you have been staring at that book for more than ten minutes already. Are you sure you’re okay?”
Oh, I’m back to my English class now. I got too preoccupied with my thoughts I forgot he is beside me. Well, now he is sitting so close to me for he is looking at my book I have been staring at for quite some time now.
“ Are you sure you’re okay?” He repeated, he is sitting to me so close I could smell his perfume.
I stood up just in time for the bell to ring. “Uhh, I’ll just call you guys if I have any good ideas okay?” My peers just nodded as I stormed out of the classroom.
I know deep inside I like this guy. I mean, who wouldn’t ? Bryan is the sweetest geek I know, but I should not fall for him. I am not even sure if Ana’s theory was right. Even if it was, I still can’t fall for him. I can’t fall for a guy with a girlfriend. Rose would kill me. Yes, Rose is his girlfriend and she happens to be my friend too.
When things go bad, think that it could possibly go worse. Work your way out of it, then be thankful, for by then you already know how strong you really are.