Slowly walking, taking careful steps while looking around. In a completely different ground, familiar place but with an entirely new scenery. Or maybe I changed, or maybe as my wounds have healed, my old goggles have shattered and now I can see clearly. What role each character had to play in the story leading to that final battle. I moved forward by retracing my steps.
As I moved along, I have noticed I was getting better. No arms, no shield, no armour. Just old bandages that I take off along the way. I reached in my pocket, I found a hairtie, put my hair up like I always do. I stepped on a puddle, a clear one. I glanced at my reflection and saw that I looked like myself again. I am awake and on a full ten. My eyes sharp, my mind clear, I had my battle face on. I have bounced back, stronger, wiser but calmer. I noticed I have no battle gear and if I have learned anything from the last battle, I don’t need one. That’s the new warrior that I have become. I smiled and kept walking.
I saw flowers from a distance, as I was heading towards it, I realized they were tulips, my favourite. I looked at them, beautiful and of various colours. I pondered on how I have always loved them, from the outside mysterious as if it has been keeping a secret but once opened, you realize it has been showing you its entirety all along. I heard something, a sound of an arrow in flight and hit a mark. I went on to search it. I saw a tree, I walk towards it and then saw the arrow pierced through its trunk with a note.
On the note it said:
You thought it was easy for Me that morning you were looking up to Me with those big brown eyes that I remember picking each hue Myself. You thought it wasn’t painful for Me trying to catch each and every tear falling down those cheeks that I sculpted Myself. You thought it didn’t hurt when I heard you say it’s so early in the morning over and over. Not even a sign of any trembling on that voice but the tears kept coming. You thought it meant nothing to Me when I was the one who watched you not taking a single bite, not a drop of water all day. I allowed all that to happen because I want you to discover how much stronger you are than you think. You are one of Mine, not everyone is.
I smiled and nodded. My Commander-in-chief knows me so well. I felt a kind of peace that’s indescribable. That’s when I knew I did good, I did it right. I never knew how long I have carried it that when the weight was lifted as if everything that’s heavy has left me. I knew then, a battle is up ahead. But I fully embrace what will come, learning from what was before as I work on it today. To run without my armour accelerates my speed. To fight with no shield is nothing but liberating. To go to battle without my weapons is my opportunity to test my ability, as a general, as a warrior, as a foot soldier. Obey as commanded in full surrender of His orders. All of that I bring to battle with me and no one can take it away.
-juliet 20190410 1427