Mornings that as soon as you open your eyes everything already seemed wrong
The kind that you know every hour is going to feel long
Those mornings that your mind says get up
The ones that you just want to lay there and want the time to stop
Days that you can’t wait to end
You put on the brightest smile just to blend
Nothing feels right
But you’re trying with all your might
Finally dusk, the day is almost over
When every single part of you feels weaker as the night gets closer
You feel proud to have done what you should
But even that didn’t change your mood
Those nights you get ready for bed
Then you lay there with thoughts in your head
You try to pray, you want to pray but only tears are coming out
Even though you want to shout
You let it all out, tears are prayers too, people say
You’re happy with your life but sometimes you are just not okay
Everything including this, too shall pass, I suppose
But you’re not okay, not tonight, because it’s just one of those
-juliet 20190121 2213