Blue From Science

I was out today, and on a very crowded place I found myself looking for you blue. That’s why I always felt I belong to the sea because it is you I long for. I feel comforted when I look up the sky because it was you all along. But again I think I blew it. Story of my life.

I find my nights ending thinking about you, times when I still saw you everyday. Hearing your voice behind me, making some silly joke and laughing afterwards. When I start my day, when I have minutes to spare, my mind travels to the thought of what you might be doing? Have you started your day and such.

It still makes me smile when you made a goofy dance right outside the room. It still makes me chuckle when I remember our silly conversations. It still makes me grin, when I think about that walk. Somehow, wherever I am in this city, it makes me smile thinking of the possibility for you to be around a corner, with that contagious smile of yours.

I’ve turning every corner with excitement, and I will until it wears me down and out. I may end up seeing you or not. I don’t even know if you’re still in the city but I’m glad our paths crossed blue.

-juliet 20200217 2034

Have you ever felt like

The only option for you is to break

You’ve stood there long enough to just let go

You don’t even have the strength to breakdown 

Not even tears to cry

Can’t find the right words that’ll fill in those broken lines of your day

You’re in a reality that you keep wishing for it to be a dream and vise versa 

That it’s only going to get worse

You think life has numb you up enough not to feel

You still go on with it everyday and look back,  asking yourself how did you get there

Giving up and yet you tell yourself you’re not a quitter and yet again saying you’re a quitter that same hour

Sometimes when you take off that proverbial band aid and not even budge

That’s it but then,  life throws you a bone then you fool yourself into thinking oh,  it’s all better now.  Until you ask yourself again the title
-Juliet 05112017

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